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for the past two weeks, i've been staying at home whiling my time away/baking batches of half-edible cookies/watching jamie oliver's cooking programme daily faithfully, and most recently, falling sick. so i was thinking about the things that happened to me this year. i realised that i can't really group incidents into discrete 'sad'/'happy' categories.. they are somewhat bittersweet.. if you get what i mean.

on receiving my A level results
happy that i did better than i expected, but sad that i didn't get to really enjoy my jc life.

on getting rejected by nus med
devastated that my dream was poofed just like that, but happy that i emerged a more determined person(i hope) after that.

on turning 19!
happy about the independence and freedom that came along with it, but at the same time uncertain and frustrated about the future and increased responsibilities.

on aus med
really, really hope i can go aus to study med. then i will be esctatic about being able to study something i like, but sad and guilty about making my parents worry about the finances.

well, what can i say?
not geting into nus med was a big blow, but yknow, at least i'm still healthy and not starving and i have a supportive family.
so, i guess i'm pretty damned grateful. yes, i really am.

p.s. sally dear.. goodbye and bon voyage!! i'm looking forward to dec.. =)